Longing and yearning for pieces of my old soul

In grief we always talk about the person who has passed away - the life they have lived, the legacy they have left behind along with all the wonderful memories, but alas we never talk about the life altering spit that happens in the lives of their loved ones where every fiber knows that life…

Enduring 730 days;

Amma I cannot wrap my head around the fact that it has been 2 years since you left us Amma. Each and everyday seems like eternity when I have to survive it without you. Yes, survive it and not live as I honestly do not know what living means since then, I have just been…

What if?

Ever since my Amma passed away so unexpectedly I have a parallel life in my mind - what if she had lived? What if she was there with me for a few more years, would my troubles not be there? How would it be if she was there to protect me, take care of me…

Chaos ; A theory, but my new reality ;

Chaos is actually an understatement for what life becomes when you lose a loved one.  You have no sense of reality, no desire to function and honestly, you lose the will to live. This might just seem like a passing phase for the ones around you but they will never be able to truly grasp…

Losing a parent and surviving ;

After I lost my loving mother so unexpectedly, my world has truly shattered. I try to write about my grief and my personal journey through it.